Pregnancy Loss VLOG by Sarah Olsen
I wanted to share my story of pregnancy loss that happened towards the end of 2019 before I was pregnant with my baby now. Teresa and I were in the middle of finishing the last touches of the edit of our book. We had dedicated a full chapter to pregnancy loss written in Teresa’s voice as she was the only one of the two of us who had experienced it. I wrote a disclaimer at the beginning of the chapter talking about how to be friend during this time and how we both really felt this chapter should be told from Teresa’s POV.
Though I knew the statistics and how common it was, I did not expect or have any idea that it would happen to me. I had two healthy pregnancies before and I was pregnant around 8 weeks and had already heard the heartbeat early. I went in for an ultrasound with my son, my husband and our doula/nanny we were all excited to see the baby and talk about the weeks ahead when the energy in the room shifted very quickly as the ultrasound tech touched the wand to my belly. I tell the whole story in the videos below but I leave you with this.
It was important for us to go back to the chapter we wrote on pregnancy loss and tell my story. It helped me so much to pour over that chapter and everything that Teresa had written and researched. It made the world of difference for me as I cried and ached in my body in a way I couldn’t even comprehend. I felt connected to Tez and to the other women who had shared their stories and I felt I had to share that this happened to me while writing our book because we want women to know that you are not alone. It is so very common and you did nothing wrong. Someone told me that sometimes the little soul isn’t ready and your body needs more time.
I share my story of recovery and self care after the loss in the videos as well as I hope they will encourage others to take the time you need to heal both mentally and physically.
With love,
Sarah